Guys! I cried a little today! It sucked, but it was good.
The day my dad was diagnosed as terminal, I got a bit choked up, but never cried....Until I got in my car and headed home from the hospital. Suddenly, out of nowhere, I lost it, and cried like a baby, pounding the steering wheel and screaming, "Not my daddy, not my daddy!" Good lord, I was 45 at the time, and felt like a small child again. It lasted about 5 minutes, and then was gone. But it did help. When he died, I didn't even get emotional or choked up at all, while the rest of the family was crying all over the place. I felt like an ass for being so 'disconnected' from their grief. I still don't understand it, but it goes to show you that as others have stated, everyone grieves in their own way. I thought my family would think of me as 'cold' for not showing much grief, but they were totally understanding.
Sorry if I derailed. I was only going to post my condolences, but that story felt the need to come out.
In any case, you have my sincerest condolences. Stay close to those you love.